Dear Jesus,

I thought I knew what love was. After all, I grew up in church. I could (and still can) recite 1 Corinthians 13 in my sleep. I knew love was patient and kind. That it kept no records of wrongdoing. I knew and still know, that it “bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things and endures all things.”

I knew that you loved me. What I didn’t realize, until fairly recently, just HOW much you only loved me and just how much I loved you back.

Quite honestly, all I want to do is just say thank you. Thank you for your dedication. Thank you for your loyalty. Thank you for allowing the man you are to love the woman I am.

I know that I haven’t always been the easiest woman to love, but You love me with such ease. Because of the love you’ve shown me, I’ve been forced to grow. I’ve had to let go of so many things that I simply didn’t want to because it brought me out of my comfort zone. I’ve been forced to trust You, relinquish the control  I guarded so heavily and just allow myself to experience the growing pains that come with love.

I guess that’s what it’s all about. It’s about stretching yourself beyond your understanding. It’s about stepping out on faith and understanding that you are indeed NOT in control and that sometimes your logic and rationale must be thrown out the window. It’s about trusting someone enough to place the one part of yourself that’s been broken, walked all over and disrespected in their hands. It’s about facing yourself and allowing yourself to experience something that’s too raw for comfort, so honest that it moves you to tears because it’s so magical in its simplicity.

Jesus you’ve done all this for me and so much more and I want to say once more…thank you. I don’t deserve your love, I don’t deserve your patience, your grace or your forgetfulness. Heck, since I’m just being honest, I don’t deserve you. I can be moody, not want to share and sometimes just downright mean. Yet, you still love me. Yet, you still died for me. DIED…FOR ME.

I mean honestly, who ISN’T searching for that kind of love?

We all want to find that ONE who will love us beyond our faults. We all want that one who will kiss us in spite of our morning breath and never pass judgement on us…The one who will not leave us when things get really tough and will accept us with all of our baggage. We all want that “head-over-heels, leave me breathless, I get so weak in the knees I can hardly speak, I-can’t-live-without-you” kinda love and I’m so grateful to have truly discovered that in you.

In the moments that I doubt myself, You whisper a sweet nothing into my ear that uplifts my spirit. Thank You.

When my selfish side begins to show and my attitude gets harsh, you don’t keep record…you hug me tighter. Thank You.

In the times where I have no idea how I’m going to make it, you make a way and leave me breathless. Thank You.

I’ve never seen your face. I’ve never felt your touch. I’ve never looked into your eyes and I’ve never nestled my head into your chest and inhaled your scent. But at this very moment in my life, I can say with no hesitation and no reservation, that I am SO in love with you. It is because of you I know what love is. Despite all I’m blessed with, I am nothing without you. You hear me? NOTHING. It is because of the love You show me day after day, that I recognize and honor the love You’ve blessed me with here on Earth.

So with that I say Happy Valentines Day to You Jesus.
I love you more than any words I can write could ever say.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo,