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I’m a busybody by nature. For as long as I can remember, I’ve been rushing from one place to another, constantly on the go…always having to do something, meet someone or be somewhere. But throughout this pregnancy, I’ve had to learn how to do what I’ve never imagined myself doing: slow down.
I used to think that the busier I was, the more emails I received, the more I posted on social media…the more successful I was. But the only thing I was successful at was running my body into the ground. Even with my body sending me signals to slow down, I ignored them because…”pssh, I’ve been doing this for 29 years. This is what I do. I can push through. I’m fine.” It was a constant battle between my mind and my body and while my mind may have won a battle or two, my body is most certainly winning the war.
I’m not going to lie to you, learning how to slow down as has been the EPITOME of struggle for me. Anyone who knows me, knows that I’m used to going 100 miles per hour….saying “I’m exhausted” proudly like it’s a badge of honor. But Baby Harris has quickly shown his mama that he is not about that life. He has forced me to sit down and shut up. Between the new level of exhaustion I’ve experienced (oh the joys of pregnancy) and the bedrest I was put on (seriously, my doctor told me to “netflix and chill”), I’m beginning to accept the fact that I simply can’t do it all. Once upon a time, spending a day in bed with my feet kicked up watching an NCIS or KC Undercover marathon with my computer closed all day would make me feel SO lazy. And to be honest, sometimes it still does. But at almost 32 weeks pregnant, I’m learning that this is totally ok. My body needs rest and like my friend, who is also a new mom, told me “GIRL…get all the rest you can. Because once that baby comes…you’re going to WISH you could sleep in peace and quiet for hours.”
As I’m learning to slow down, I’m learning to quiet my thoughts and simply be content with being still. Even when I feel my brain starting to go into overload mode and worry about any and everything under the sun, I listen to that voice inside that says “Be still and know that I am God.” I know that there are things I still want to take care of and things I worry about, but God is God and I know that He is going to take care of everything….that I’m not doing myself any favors by worrying about everything and trying to be superwoman. Now don’t get me wrong, I still go house crazy from time to time and head to the beach for a bit, but learning the art of truly doing NOTHING for someone like me has been both troublesome and rewarding. I may still worry about the growing number of emails in my inbox and serving as many people as I can, but the truth is the little one inside of me is my biggest client right now and listening to him isn’t just something I have to do, it’s something I WANT to do.
Whether we’re pregnant or not, I know as women, we pride ourselves on constantly being busy. Whether we’re rushing from one meeting to another or over-committing ourselves to everyone and everything, always being busy doesn’t necessarily equal success. If you can’t seem to ever just be still, I hope you can one day. It definitely takes work, but there is special kind of power in being still and even though I’m still getting used to it, I have to say so far…it’s pretty darn awesome. 🙂
I CAN’T BELIEVE I’M ALMOST 32 WEEKS PREGNANT!! WHERE HAS TIME GONE?